I had another dream where I stabbed the fuck out of someone last night.
This time he kinda deserved it and kinda didn't.
He needed to know how angry I was but I'm not sure sticking a small blade into him over and over while screaming was the way.
Had a kinda shitty day.
I almost fucking lost it over trying to fix a seven year old computer in a shitty diner franchise at some strip on the edge of nowhere.
The DejaVu I had on the way up to the 8 Freeway while listening to FM94.9 was comforting though.
Made the drive home seem like the shortest I've ever had from that far South.
I'm seeing spiders everywhere but it's not freaking me out that much.
I'm in love with the young Christian girl that got me hooked on chai with an add shot.
The way she took a moment to talk to me tonight made me wonder...
But it's probably just another case of "The Nurse Who Loved Me".
The weirdest thing about being "in love" with someone is not even needing their participation or consent to do it.
It's the act of loving a person that takes all the work... or just the sacrifice of all your programmed actions.
I sipped my chai and watched "Harold and Kumar go to White Castle" while my youngest child fell asleep in my arms.
It put me right after a day like today.
Goodnight, Everyone.